A long talk....

I had a long talk with a very old friend of mine today. He helped me see alot of things I needed to see. Things "hard to hear". I have severe abadonment issues. This in conjunction with other issues creates mistrust that M doesn't deserve. I need to streighten up. She isn't, well she shouldn't put up with that anymore. If she does or doesn't, I have already recieved more patience from her then I deserved. I pray it is not too late to get help....